Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Okay... I can't do it - thanks so much for your thoughts.

I thought I could.  I'm not sure I shouldn't.  But I can't walk into my doctor's office with the express intent to decieve him.  I already think I'm going to change practices, maybe to a fill center, or maybe I'll find a different doctor's office.  But lying to him just goes against my good girl, rule-follower nature. I'm so much more of a 'in your face this is how it is and you can now take it or leave it' kind of girl.

I'm brilliant at diversion, but I rarely actually lie.  And this was too much of a lie for me.  I was going to eat salty carbs today so my weight would go up a few pounds, but I'm not even going to do that.   I'm in a really good eating and exercising place right now and to go off the ranch too far could too easily spell disaster. 

I'm not in desperate need of a fill right now.  I certainly don't have good restriction as evidenced by my often rumbling stomach, but if I find out he truly can't see past the numbers on the scale then it's better to find that out now while I'm in a really good head-space then later when I'm in a bad one.

I may be hitting up some of my more local bandsters for opinions of their practices or maybe he'll surprise me.

Anyway - thanks so much for your thoughts and advice, it was much appreciated.

(I will be wearing the heaviest outfit I can find though, and I guess it's possible that there might be some loose change or old keys in my pockets.)

4 comments:

amandakiska said...

I bet he surprises you.

Something About Kellie said...

If worst comes to worst - just fill up on a big water drink right before your appointment - that way you won't feel too deceiptful and it wont impact badly on your good bahviours ;)

Goodluck - my fingers are crossed for you.

Nikki said...

I think you will be surprised. I often develop pre-conceived ideas from combining everyone's experience with their physicians, with mine. I think if your honest with him and tell him that you need a fill, that you've had loss BUT it's been 80% willpower so you wouldn't gain - he will understand and you will get a fill. I can't wait to see an update on how it goes! :)

Bonnie said...

I lost 6 lbs in 3 weeks and my surgeon still gave me a fill because I told him I could eat more than a cup and was hungry in less than 3 hours. If this is how you are feeling then yes you do need a fill and hold your ground. Tell your physician that weight loss does not tell the entire story and if you wanted to lose weight without restriction you wouldn't have gotten the band. Remember - he works for you. Good luck!