Friday, January 28, 2011

B.Y.O.C.

On to BYOC….

1. Do you believe in love at first sight?

Hmmm, I'm not sure if I believe in the "at first sight" part of that, but I definitely believe in Love at first meeting.  I think it's rare, but I think that serious and real spark could be there right from the beginning.  Now if we were talking Lust at first sight - yeah, well we all know that's alive and well.


2. What’s your idea of a romantic evening?

Oh man this is really a hard one for me right this second.  I am so far from feeling romantic that I'm not sure I can get there.  But.. thinking back... I guess it would be doing something really low key.  Staying at home while the kids were somewhere else, maybe cooking something really yummy together and then cuddeling up on the couch with a fire roaring watching a movie - just enjoying each other.

3. Who was your first crush?

I can't say I was ever much into crushes - I think they were too close to emotions for me to really go there.  There was a boy in the fourth grade that probably qualifies.  He now has 6 kids and is a FB friend of mine and I still think he's cool.

4. What do you believe is a stronger emotion – love or hate?



I think they're equal.  The yin and the yang.  The opposite of love is not caring, it's certainly not hating.  Though as I'm typing this, there just isn't anyone I hate or I think that I've ever hated.  I just don't have it in me to waste that kind of energy, and there are definitely people I love.  I'm not sure what that says.  I think I could shut off my feelings before I hated someone - and man, now I've totally confused myself because I don't know what the hell that means...

5. Repeat question: Summarize your life in blogland and in real life.

In blogland it's been terribly sad.  I've cried every day for Barbara and her family and I didn't even have the pleasure of meeting her last year.  It's such an awesome thing, this little community that I've found.  There's such love and support between everyone... I don't really have the words to describe it, other than it's an awesome thing.

In real life... it's been hard.  I'm sitting here waiting for Brad to do something, anything.  I can't be the one to always do it, I have to know some of it comes from him and it's just not there.  I know on a lot of levels he's just plain oblivous - if I'm not making a issue out of it, it must be all better - but... I don't know.  I think I'm going to have to break down and say somthing to him again because I can't keep doing this fake thing we've got going on right now.  

7 comments:

tessierose said...

I sure hope things get better, it's hard to be waiting on someone else to step it up. Good luck!

Bonnie said...

Great minds think alike. We answered pretty much the same way on 1 and 4. Sorry things are still not great with Brad.

Ronnie said...

I'm sorry things aren't going well in real life, just remember your bandster friends are always here for you with advice and encouragement!

Drazil said...

Man I want to wring his neck for not knowing what he has in you. Life is too short to settle...and he's counting on you to settle...but I think you realize you're worth so much more than that...cuz Read...you are.

~Lisa~ said...

Wish I had the words that could make things right for you.. Although I don't, know that I am here - we are ALL here for you..

(((hugggsssss)))

Dinnerland said...

I'm so sorry it has been such a tough week, I hope things will turn around very soon... xo

Liz said...

Thanks so much for your comments about my dad. Things are going downhill there, but we are all trying to stay strong. I went back and read your whole blog from the beginning, and think you're awesome! Can't wait to get to know you better :)