Tuesday, February 8, 2011

I've been de-followed

There were 106 and now there are 105.  Someone doesn't like me anymore.  It's very, very sad.  I thought we had a good thing going.  There was laughter and frivolity.  I thought I meant more than that.  I thought I was important.  I thought we had a future.

You know, it's hard.  It's hard when you love someone and they don't love you back.  It's hard when you try to be the best you can be and find out... sometimes it's just not good enough.  Sometimes what you are, who you are, what you have to offer - just aren't what the other person wanted or needed.

I know after some time has passed I'll be better able to put this in perspective, but right now.... it's just really hard.  I want what we had before.  When it was going well.  When we were stronger.  There was laughter.  There were smiles.  There was a real connection.... or maybe that was just me.  I thought we had a real connection.  Maybe that's what this all boils down to - I need to get a better handle on what 'connection' means.  I guess it means more to me than it did to them.

I know I'll survive this hit.  It's just going to take some time.  Sniff sniff.

14 comments:

Shannie (akaSolidice242) said...

LOL you are funny. I get unfollowed from time to time. I even do it from time to time sometimes (stop following someone i mean) it happens. I like this post though...lol

Rachel said...

HI Read, I would never break up with you via the blog. The real reason? I don't want to miss any mother in law stories in the future. When is the next family get together. You are prolly (read's intentional phonetic misspellings LOL) one of the funniest bloggers around.Your MIL stores had me laughing so hard and inappropriately in my office. I miss that.

Lee Ann said...

It wasn't me. l still love you. I guess #106 didn't care for laughter. Maybe they recently broke some ribs and found laughter too painful. That hurts you know.

Barbara said...

FOR THE RECORD.. ITS NOT ME.. I unfollowed some one once (BY ACCIDENT) I was clickin so many frickin buttons.. so it really could have been an accident.. but I love your posts.. so for the record.. it aint me!!!

Bonnie said...

Don't sweat it, I'll just love you twice as much. :)

Something About Kellie said...

Maybe number 106 was Ricky!!!! lol - Just sayin' - That would be kinda funny though - but I'm pretty sure Ricky doesn't know how to turn a computer on so I think you'd be safe ;)

Stephanie said...

LOL! You ain't right. I've been defollowed lately too. *sniff sniff*

Dawnya said...

Oh Read...I can so relate...one day I had 43 followers...the next morning they were so over me and I only had 42. It broke my heart. I felt so abandoned. We can cry on each others shoulder.

Dizzy Girl said...

I still love you Read!

Tina said...

am i even following you?? I dont really use that follow thing...use my side bar thingy instead. i do like ya though..an aspire to your blog prowess. just blow it off I think.

~Lisa~ said...

It aint me... 'Cause I love ya just the way you are!

Justawallflower said...

I'm sure it had nothing to do with you. They just weren't in a place where they could be in such a committed place. Just hang in there, and try not to eat your feelings..... ;)

Alison said...

I'm still one of your fans!

tessierose said...

Breaking up is hard to do....
you kill me, I would never leave you like that!