Monday, October 31, 2011

Me and my band...

So… this is at least in part a blog about my lap band, right?  I’ve been remiss about that lately and that’s got to change.

I’ve gained weight in every challenge I’ve ever done, including the before Chicago one and I’ve only gained more since then.  I’m not talking thousands of pounds – but still… I am slowing trickling in the wrong directly vs heading steadily in the right direction. 

I’ve just gotten complacent – I can totally see how people fail with this thing.  At least for me – it’s never affected my hunger levels and I think it’s easy for me to say – waaaaa, poor me and ignore the things it does do for me.  It does not let me eat a whole pizza – most of the time.  it’s true that it takes big vacations and I have no doubt I could, in fact, eat a whole pizza some days – whereas other days I couldn’t eat more than a bite without getting stuck to high heaven.  And the number of days where I can eat way too much are much, much fewer than the days where the band says – uh… yeah, you should stop now.  The other thing it does for me – most of the time – is tell me I should stop eating now.  It’s the listening to that – that’s the problem for me. 

This weekend I had my normal chai latte and then went to work in the basement – I got tons done down there – it’s almost the lovely room I envisioned when we finished the basement – but at about 2pm I was STARVED!!!  I headed upstairs and for some strange reason decided I wanted a grilled cheese sandwich.  I haven’t had one of those in forever…. Years.  Anyway, I made myself one (with swiss cheese) knowing I probably wasn’t going to be able to eat more than a bite or two.  But nope.  I had no problem scarfing it right down.  Like seriously.  It was a sandwich.  There were 2 pieces of bread – with cheese in the middle.  Not one little problem.  But… you know what?  I know better than that all by myself. 

So… starting right now – I’m going to be talking a lot more about my band – and life with it.  I’m doing the 5 day pouch test this week which helps my brain remember that I am, in fact, in control of my choices.  And I’m committing to you all, here and now, that I will get on the treadmill at least three times this week for at least 30 minutes each time.  I’m starting slowly, with the hope of working up from there.  I’ve been totally sucking at the working out thing which is really annoying to me because I actually really like to work out.  So we’ll start slowly and work from there.

There you have it!
Happy Halloween!!


edited to add: I just ate some SF jello (on the pouch test) and I swear I had a hard time getting it down.  How can I have no problem eating a grilled cheese sandwich one day and have a hard time eating JELLO!!! the next???

11 comments:

Theresa aka Tessie Rose said...

Hello, I'm in the same boat...

Jessica said...

Good Luck!

Cat said...

Love hearing about your band lady. Though the real life stuff is always a treat too. *hugs*

You'll do great on the pouch test and you'll knock that 90 mins of treadmill out of the park!

Manda said...

That is funny about how the band works. Usually later in the day, I'm looser. I'm learning now (with my last fill done a month ago)... I may have to leave the breads alone.

Band Groupie said...

These are fickle things these bands! It never gets and easier to understand them, but I think we get better at understanding ourselves. Great committment!

FitBy40 said...

Even after reading your post, I still want candy! It's taunting me.
Good luck with the pouch test!

Jen said...

We are band twins. I'm with you on the three times a week thing.
And also the gaining weight on a challenge thing..WTF??!!

Amanda said...

I don't think I could eat jello unless it got really watery in my mouth!

Although I already knew about your pouch test I am looking forward hearing how it all goes!!

Cindylew said...

Good luck on your pouch test. I think it's a great idea.

Robyn's Nest said...

The fickle band is like that for me too.

♫ Drazil ♪ said...

Good luck babycakes. You are worth this - and more.