Friday, November 19, 2010

Hallelujah... I made it to onederland!

So it's been weeks and weeks since I first saw below 205 and was what I considered withing spitting distance of onederland, in fact I just went and looked - it was October 22nd.  So now on November 19th I finally see that one as the first number.  Thank the heavenly Lord above. phew. 

I'm really not good at goals.  I always do things to sabotage myself as I get close to any goal - It's the biggest personal flaw I want to change - but that's a whole different issue.  I had a very, very quiet - hush, hush sort of goal-lite of reaching this mark before we went to Disney (which is today).  I was too afraid to actually state it as an actual goal (even in my own brain) - but those little boxes in the back of my brain sometimes talk to me and there was a very quiet discussion - one I could totally deny if need be - about wanting to hit that mark by this date.

When I very quietly thought about that being a relatively easily achievable mark - I had more than 2 1/2 months to lose less than 15 pounds and I'd very easily beaten that mark before and it was near the beginning of this journey - when I was most ready to do what I needed to do - to learn what I needed to learn.  This was a no brainer.  The closer I got, the slower it went.  I had pretty much come to the realization that I wasn't going to make it (still in the very quiet, totally deniable kind of conversation I have within my brain). 

The difference this time, though, was that I wasn't getting discouraged.  I was still losing.  I was still totally and completely confident that I was heading in the right direction.  I knew totally and concretely that I'd get there and get to all the rest of the places I want to go - it just might take a while.  This band thing - it's giving me confidence.  This is a beautiful thing.

So in a few hours we're heading to Disney World to spend Thanksgiving with Mickey.  And I'm going to see what happens when I just relax a little and just follow the band rules.  I'll eat when I'm hungry, which I'm totally doing at home, but I won't have a house full of easy, protein rich, foods to grab.  So we'll just see what we'll see.  I think it's going to be all good. 

I hope everyone has a beautiful and inspiring Thanksgiving!!

21 comments:

~Lisa~ (Mrs C) said...

Congrats on ONEderland!!! I'm just so thrilled for YOU!!

Have a terrific time in Disney and have a wonderful Thanksgiving!

We'll miss you!

Justawallflower said...

I am a total self sabatoger too! That's why this time I set goals, but without timelines. I hope u have a wonderful time at disney!

nikki said...

What a fabulous way to start your vacation! Congrats on onederland!! I'm so happy for you. Enjoy Disney - two of my coworkers are headed there next week too! Can't wait to see pictures.

Tina said...

wahoooooo! Onedrland is huge! Have a great time in Disney!!

Gilly said...

big HIGH FIVE for hitting onederland!! Woooo!!!

Have a FABULOUS time at Disney walking off many many calories in the happiest place on earth!

Miss Vickie "The Queen Bee" said...

Woo hoo! Yay for you, girl! I hope you enjoy your well deserved vacation!

Stephanie said...

Congrats and welcome to Onderland!

amandakiska said...

ONDERLAND, Baby! F-Yeah!

Have a great trip!

Sarah G said...

Congrats!

Jacquie said...

Welcome home!

Fluffy said...

Congrats, Read!

Carmen said...

yayy onderland! and have fun!

Amanda said...

Onederland is upon you!! Fantastic! Have a great trip to Disney!

Fab Kate said...

congrats! :)

Drazil said...

Weehaw. High five. Cartwheels. Farting gumdrops and all that stuff! YAY YOU! Now go give Mickey a hug for me...and grab his ass. He has the cutest ass. Crap - did I type that out loud?

Rachel said...

Your news is wonderful wonderful wonderful!!!

Sam said...

Congrats on your onederland goal being achieved, no matter how far in the back of your brain it was. I totally get that fear of self sabotage. I am sure I do the same thing.

Have fun at Disney for Thanksgiving :o)

TheCurvyCat said...

Wooohooooo!! Welcome to Onederland! :D :D

You're doing GREAT!

I understand the self-sabotage thing too, and usually right about the time I hit Onederland. I rambled about it then, and continue to battle it as my weight eeks downward.

Joey said...

We are scale twins! Mega congrats!!

Nella said...

Wooohoo!
Happy Thanksgiving Babe!
Thanks for all of your encouragement!

Bonnie said...

Great news!