Hi there... remember me?
I sort of don't like it so much when people do these kinds of posts... But here I am doing one anyway. I so need a fill. OMG. And for me that means I need a new doctor because my old one is an idiot. For any number of reasons that's true - but in the fill department - he won't give anything that is less than .5cc and he really prefers at least 1cc. At this particular moment that might be fine - but the last two times he's given me fills, I've wanted tiny little fills - like .1cc possibly .2 and he's refused and given me 1.5cc the first time and 1cc the second time - both times I had to have it removed several days later and had the opportunity to suffer through barely being able to swallow my own spit for a week ish. It was really fun.
Anyway - I've had on my calendar for more than a year that I needed to get a new doctor and I just haven't done it yet. I'm lazy, I guess. I'm afraid the new one will be as bad as the current one. The devil you know.... Who knows what the problem is - but seriously - more than a year! I've been hitting my "snooze" button on my Outlook Calendar all that damn time. The "appointment" is now 62 or so weeks late. Oops.
But... earlier this week I got Ledo's for the kids and I got a small bacon pizza in addition to the other stuff. I was absolutely planning on having some. It's thin crust and I can usually get some down, though we haven't had it in a while. But really, I figured my older son would be the one eating it. But no... he had something else. And I ate the entire pizza. Every last bit. I didn't even have any shoulder pain that usually comes with over eating. Tonight I had my younger son's left over pasta. I could eat it just as easily as if I didn't have a band. Then I had a piece of doughy bread with the rest of the sauce. Um... yup, not the slightest issue. I can't even say I had to chew particularly slowly. I mean... I'm all for not having foods completely off limits. But seriously... I think with a band inside of me I should not be able to eat that much food without the slightest reminder that I have a band.
And yes - OMG do I get that those were my choices to make. I totally shouldn't have eaten that for a thousand different reasons - it will not get me to my goals. But I did have this tool implanted inside me and I would like there to be some affect from it. Maybe I'll never have the appetite suppressant part of it's benefits - but a little reminder that I might want to slow down a bit would be nice.
So tomorrow begins... Operation find a new doctor. I have asked some friends to help me remember to get this done... to encourage me to do it sooner vs. later. Hopefully I'll get it done on my own and if not, I hope their encouragement will get me there.
Oh and guess what??? My husband tells me that my MIL will be coming soon for a month ish - and he's going to be in CA for an entire week of that. He's going to owe me soooo big. I'm going to have to think of a really good way for him to pay me back....